So I just finished talking to one of my friends. He told me his story; well why he believes in the LDS church anyway. He had his struggles with life and believes that the church is the reason he has happiness. In a way, you could say that he believes that the only way to true happiness is through the LDS church. Is it? I'm sure all of my LDS friends would agree with him.
I'm curious.
I myself have never believed this. I believe that my parents are happy and will continue to be and they are not LDS. My aunt and uncle Bob and Diana are happy and they aren't LDS either. Then there is my aunt and uncle Jim and Elyse, who are LDS, and they don't seem to be nearly as happy as my parents or Bob and Diana.
But then maybe happiness and TRUE happiness are different things.
I know that there is more happiness among my friends who are LDS than many other people that I have met. But what if that comes from just being more driven than other people?
I don't know.
He also told me about the times that he started going to church, or something of the sort, and then stopped. He said that every time that he did, his life was better and he felt better. When he would stop going his life wasn't as good and he felt depressed. I believe him. I believe that a lot of people feel the same and have done the same.
This leaves me confused.
Every time that I have started going to church, or started praying... my life got worse. I don't get it. I mean, I want to believe like they do. Wouldn't it be great to know there is a God that loves you. It would be great to know you are destined for happiness if you follow "the rules". It would be great to know that you belong somewhere. I have asked for the motivation to find out the truth, or to know for myself. How come every time that I put forth any effort whatsoever life gets worse for me? I have asked some friends about this and they believe that Satan is trying to influence me away or something. I guess that could be true. But, if there is this higher power, divine being, then why wouldn't he also be trying to sway me towards "the truth"?
I don't get it.
There is also this talk of "the spirit" or Holy Ghost. This is their guide in life. Helps them make their life decisions and such. I believe that I have felt it, I mean the feeling they say they get from it. I also wonder though if the feeling just comes from strong hope or strong desire for a purpose in why we are here on this planet. Maybe a need to have a reason. For all I know, they are right that it is a higher power guiding them to righteousness.
hmm. I wonder.
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Oh Shasta you are too cute!! I think so many people have that very same question. Some do believe and just think is to much work while others just live a good life no matter what. I think you are on the right path for believing their is a higher being. I know without a doubt and if I ever denied that I know my life would fall apart over time. I know that not all LDS people are a good example of the amazing gospel here on this earth but that is why you have to take the words of the scriptues and study them. I do believe we can all be guided by the holy ghost but if we want his constant companionship we must enter the waters of baptism.
ReplyDeleteYou are an amazing girl and a very good friend. As for the bad things that happen when you go to church, I can not explain that, but I do know I made it through the toughest times in my life on my knees in fervent prayer to the one person who knows me best. And greatest of all I am his daughter and so are you and he loves you.
You will always be a special part of our family!!
Melissa